it was a long call shift

 I just finished a 3 day call shift and I think I died at one point . 😂 OMG how do people do this??? 24hr is one thing; 72 is a whole other animal. I’ll have to figure something out because there is no way I could do 4 (Monday is my normal call day but when I have to do a weekend, it’s Friday through Monday AM and if I had to continue on....yeeeaaahh I dunno. ) maybe I’m just a big baby? Or maybe it gets easier? I did have one lovely super midwife-y type birth that was pretty divine. So there is that 😊 On another note, the most important kind, my grandma died. My lovely grandma that Andie Lucie is named for. I have all the feels about that one that will require more sleep to put into words properly. I will miss you, grandma. 

headache

 Today was the kind of day where everything seemed to be complicated. People had hypertension, or cholestasis, or out-of-control blood sugars requiring insulin adjustments. And now my head hurts. I don't get headaches often, but today it’s pounding. And then I realized I didn’t pee the entire time I was at work (740am-545pm). And I didn’t drink any water all day. Whoops. I need to be better about that....

Here’s to a tomorrow that’s a little more easy~peasy~lemon-squeezy! (As little Lu would say ;-))

because it’s been a couple of years...

 Today, for some reason, I got the urge to write. I haven’t updated this thing in years and I’m sure no one probably reads it, but I know someday, I may want to look back on it. Or maybe my girls will? A lot of it is about them or involves them, I suppose. 

I may have gotten the urge to write because I was reading an old internet friend’s blog. I realized I hadn’t talked to her in years, not since we were pregnant with our kids, and out of the blue looked her up. And found an obituary instead. Life sucks sometimes. It hurts my heart. 

So, the past few years. I’m a midwife now. Dang was that a crazy journey. One of the hardest things I’ve done for sure, and it took me about 5 years I think. There were many times during the doctorate I thought I wouldn’t make it through. Not because it was too scholastically challenging, but various life circumstances or whatnot. But, I am done. I am now Shani Sluys, DNP, CNM, RNC-MNN, for those who care. All it really means is I specialize in healthcare reform and implementation of evidence-based practice, women’s health, and obstetrical/neonatal care. And I moved. I’m now living in  a new state, with a new job, with a great group, and it’s a little overwhelming. I feel like I will be living/breathing my job for quite awhile. And being on salary means staying late to chart prep and coming in for 7am meetings on your day off (😆). This has been the weirdest, most beautiful, most stressful, most exciting, most wistful time of my life. It’s a crazy mess of gratitude, loneliness, love, excitement, and sadness I have experienced. That probably doesn’t make much sense. I hope I am strong enough to keep pushing through. 

More updates soon, I think. :-)