...perhaps I will have that 'Attitude Adjustment' tomorrow?

Yeeeaaahhh....embracing an attitude adjustment?

It doesn't appear as though I will be having my change of attitude today. In fact, I had a teeny weeny little emotional, ahem, breakdown. At work. Yippee. All because my boss has informed me that, after checking with the advice of a few people, they won't be able to grant me a leave of absence, if I want to come back to work here I will have to go through the new orientation process over again. As she put it, "Not if but when!" Hmmm. Well, I feel undervalued, because per our protocol it *is* her call, even if the higher-ups (?) disagreed. The policy says that you have to have been employed here for at least 3 months (definitely done), have a good attendance record (done) and have manager approval (I guess...not done). What a bummer. I really wanted to stay on at Swedish, and pick up some shifts in the future. Not to mention I am leaving one month short of my 401(K) being vested at a much higher percentage- SUCKY. I was so convinced I would get approved after reading the policy and per my previous discussion with my manager, because she claims to really want to keep me. I am just so disappointed, I wanted to leave on a good note, and not really "leave" exactly, but take a hiatus. It just stinks because other people have gotten this opportunity there but I will not, maybe because upper management is tightening the reins or something. Sooo I started my shift totally bummed, cried, and had my emotional moment for the second time at work. I've now got to say good-byes tonight and type up my resignation, as my last night is tomorrow (technically, tonight) and I am trying to get the night off. I just feel really drained, and, honestly, a little bit of a bitter taste in my mouth. Too bad they couldn't have told me this instead of waiting for me to approach them again about it, even though the decision had already been made...sigh. Well, it is what it is, and I will make the best of it. Hopefully it is what is meant to be. And I'll still be working on that attitude adjustment, see the picture above. Just ignore the red eyes and puffy face from crying. And the sleep-deprived, night shift, general I-feel-crappy look. I'm really just singin' Pollyanna tunes over here at the Chalet de Swedish tonight :-)